I was at my friend’s cabin this weekend and you guys I am so freaking burnt. like this is just the tip of the iceberg :

but miraculously my face didn’t burn, but my stomach and my shoulders and oh god my collar bone are red red red red red. 

looking through pictures taken this month and is my face ever chubby. Not happy at all with how I look in any of the pictures. I know I’ve taken a break from working out the past few weeks because I was working and finishing up school but boy is it ever time to get back on track. I hate looking at myself and not liking what I see. 

so the scale says I’ve gained 5 pounds. but all my measurements are the same or smaller. but I seriously doubt I could’ve gained 5 pounds of muscle. what is happening.

I haven’t been posting workouts of the day because I had an ultimate tournament this weekend. and that shit got intense. I had 4 games yesterday (where I play the entire game) and then 2 today. We were supposed to have 3 but after halfway through the 2nd game it started raining like crazy. And it was freezing rain too. That combined with the crazy winds made that last game not very enjoyable and then they cancelled the game after that. I had an amazing time this weekend, and am so excited for next year’s tournament. 

Sidenote, ultimate is some crazy shit you guys. My body is aching like no tomorrow. My calves and hip flexors are trying to encourage me to stay in bed and prevent me from walking. I also have a hockey game tomorrow so that should be fun! 

Who said exercise has to be in a gym or a workout room? Get outside and play a game of ultimate ! 

so i just got back from my ultimate game, and I wanted to do something else today. My plan was to do the p90x abs video that I did on Sunday, but my abs are still super sore. Should I rest and just do some yoga instead? Or should I push through the ab workout?

start doing yoga everyday. I’ve always been jealous of people who practice yoga and find such peace doing it, so I’ve decided why not me? Why can’t I do that too? So starting today I’m going to be doing at least 20 minutes of yoga everyday à la Tara Stiles. I’m excited to work on my flexibility :) and peace of mind

just finished doing the p90x abs video. and boyyyyy are my abs tremblin. It was my first time doing it, and I know I didn’t do all the moves with proper form because I simply couldn’t. I’m gonna keep doing this vid until I look like a pro doing all the moves :)

ps, if you don’t wanna buy the video, which I didn’t, go on youtube and search for a vid and there are lots of people who have filmed videos of themselves doing the workout and then you can watch for free! yay!!

this afternoon I scraped my dad’s bumper trying to fit into a tight parking space. there was no damage to the other car, but mine’s got some scrapes on it and the paints chipped away. no dents so thats a plus. But I have to pay to get it fixed, with the zero money that I have which causes quite the dilemma. I feel so bad too and now I feel like I’m going to hit everything when I’m driving even though I know I’m a good driver. ahh.

dear lawd do i want to learn sign language. let’s just go ahead and add that to the bucket list.

I have 9 dollars in my bank account. 9 f*cking dollars. I have no idea what to do because nowhere will hire me. And if I were to get hired, I’m gone all July so I’d only be able to work for about 2 months. And who’s gonna hire someone who can only work two months. But I need money. I need gas money and money for other stuff and I don’t get allowance. What should I do!?